Always do the right thing for yourself.
I've been a people pleaser my entire life. Wanting to accommodate everyone and have everyone love me but that's left me emptier than where I started. I've always considered myself to be a positive, glass half full kind of person but lately I have let the unhappiness I feel at my job take over my entire attitude and mentality and I had a mental breakdown on Monday to the point where I asked for a personal leave to take care of myself.
I went in that Monday and just felt so off, my chest felt heavy, I was sweating profusely and my hands wouldn't stop shaking. I tried to begin my work day the way I began each work day by reading some emails and my physical condition just became worse. I felt like I was having an out of body experience and something greater was controlling me, I started packing my things at my desk and set-up a meeting with my Human Resource department to inquire about my options for a personal leave and as I was talking to HR I just lost it, I couldn't stop crying and I knew I needed time off for myself.
For far too long I internalized things and smiled through my pain and I think I just had an a breakdown so I finally did the right thing for me and put myself first. I am not going to lie and say this decision was easy or made abruptly as my unhappiness with my job has spanned almost a year but I am hoping that by me sharing this with whoever is reading it will help someone stand up for themselves and do the right thing whether it be leaving a bad relationship, eating better, standing up to someone that's bullied you, whatever it is I hope you'll have the courage to stand up for yourself.
Thanks so much for reading!